Crossdressing men have stated

• The feeling of silky, sexy lingerie against my skin is so tactile, and I cannot ever get enough of that feeling. Also, when dressed for someone who is going to treat you like the lady you feel you are, the sexual turn on is so powerful the ensuing sex is phenomenal!!

• It gives me a feeling that I can be myself as a woman, not a man. I enjoy the difference the clothing makes and the makeup no matter how badly I apply it. I feel content inside & would like to spend the rest of my life enema.

• I love clothes; I love the way I suddenly think sexy when I'm wearing them especially stockings and heels and anything that enhances my breasts.

• I feel tremendously calm and relaxed when dressed. It's almost as though I become a different person with a whole different outlook on life. Crossdressing allows me to feel delicate, meek and sensitive.

• I enjoy crossdressing as I feel feminine and sensual, and the feel of the clothes on my skin is incredibly erotic, I have a fem side I would like to explore.

• I love the feel of soft satin against my skin. When I cross-dress, it brings out my inner female within me.

• It gives me the freedom to be who I want to be when I'm not them. I love the feel of the clothes and the way heels make my legs look fab. But most of all it completes me.

• I like the feel of women's clothes around me and the contact with silky fabrics. I feel relaxed when dressed.

• The feminine lingerie, baby dolls, dresses, and makeup feel so beautiful and puts me so at ease.

How does one start? As stated before you may have a childhood experience and now you want to continue, or you are looking to try something new. Either way, maybe underdressing will meet your needs.

Underdressing has serval meanings, but for this article, it is a word used to describe a practice that some cross-dresser uses to stay in touch with their feminine side. Underdressing usually pertains to a man who will wear the undergarments of a woman, under the drab outer garments of his male clothing. Surprising, there is little posted on the internet under the search of underdressing but appears to be widely practiced by men all over the world. The practice could be as simple as a man putting on a pair of silk panties made for a woman, or he may be more adventurist by underdressing with a matching satin bra and panty.

https://jessxdress.wordpress.com/2014/04/05/panty-underdressing-tips/ provides comments on fit, fabric, color, frills and lace, style and choice.

Others might find deep emotional satisfaction in cross-dressing. Some people may cross-dress only occasionally, while others may do it on a regular basis—for instance, wearing women's lingerie under a men's business suit to work every day.

On cold days a man may even put on pantyhose to feel the pleasure of his legs being enclosed by nylon.

Underdressing includes painting your toenails, wearing woman shoes, wearing pantyhose, or stockings, garter belt, panties, bra, chemise, corset,

whorton59 a crossdresser of many years, he stated on www.susans.org forum, then he, “By the 9th grade I was hooked. I can recall wearing the panties under my jeans to night school one night. That was the first time I had worn anything outside of a home. The feelings of trepidation, abject fear and excitement were indescribable”.

whorton59 continues, “Almost exclusively "underdressing." That is, I wear a bra with silicone breast forms, panties, and keds or some other not glaringly obviously woman's shoe. Keds are good, black Mary janes are good.”

Underdressing is becoming popular with men young and old, with their girlfriend and wives. Major woman clothing manufactures (mostly for bra and panties) has recognized that 5% of these products are being purchased and worn by men. These manufactures are not making and marketing a line of bras and panties made for men. A search of flickr.com will deliver to your computer screen a plethora of pictures (caution these photos can be X-rated) of me in panties.

https://xdress.com/ This website is for him who wants to wear her things. They use male models.

https://shop.hommemystere.com/categories/Panties/

http://www.sonic.net/~biltrlok/index.php?p=ppinterview Bill Turlock’s Lingerie Lover/ Panty Art website. This site has movies for sale, stories, pictures, and a

http://www.sonic.net/~biltrlok/index.php?p=stories

Many men had reported they started to wear woman panties when they were young usually associated with their discovering masturbation. Let's face it a man’s climax can be a very pleasurable activity.

There may be many factors to consider when a man underdresses.

https://malefemme.blogspot.com/2014/10/underdressing.html excellent articles on the subject of underdressing.

Sarah Charles https://www.susans.org/forums posted this about how it feels to underdress, “It's amazing that as the thrill becomes less the layers of experience add depth and meaning to the experience. There is no longer a need to have the adrenaline or the climax to make crossdressing satisfying. It's enough to have it part of your personality, understanding the challenge of fashion and how difficult it can be to transform the male body and face into something semi or even totally feminine.”

Underdressing

OK, gender-bending is not for you, you are not going out in public dressed as a woman and with your beard. And female masking is too expensive. What else can I do? For a lot of cross-dressers, it not all about looking like a woman but feeling like a woman. The pleasure is feeling something that has been reserved for the other sex that is exciting. Male clothing is called “drab,” And not all men want to feel like a woman, they want fashion freedom and choice to wear what they want and have options. Show off their fresh sense of style and what makes them who they are. Even woman get purses in beautiful forms, yes, we have wallets, but they only can do so much with them. Men's clothes are dark colors; the funny thing is we are nothing like the male peacock bird at least they know what brightly fun colors are. Men's clothes are basically, T-shirt, shorts jeans, pants suit, polo, kilt but not typical to wear, man-made fashion kilt style but again not common, long sleeve, button shirt, overalls but not common unless you do farm work, and yet all these haven't changed from being like each other just with either a different pattern or picture on it. Not changing the style, a shirt still being a shirt no matter what color or pic is on it vs. a suit still being a suit made of whatever material. (bomberman6 a 32 old male)

From Quora, Julia Reece, stated in reply to why do men wear woman’s clothes?

Men wear women’s clothing for many reasons, and here are some of the most common ones:

#1 - Many men adore women and want to feel as close to them as possible. This is one of the most common reasons why men wear women’s clothing - dressing in the same clothing that women wear gives many men the feeling that they are literally inside a woman’s body.

#2 - Most men have been deprived of wearing pretty colors and feminine styles all their lives. So, when a chance encounter occurs in which a man has his first opportunity to feel what it’s like to wear soft fabrics and pretty colors, something may be triggered deep down inside of him that feels wonderful. It’s almost liked a hidden part of his psyche wakes up for the first time in his life when he recognizes his feminine side.

#3 - Women’s clothing is sexy, while men’s clothing is… not so much. When a man spends his entire life wearing the standard uniform that men are expected to wear, and then one day he tries on a pair of women’s underwear, a lightbulb goes off in his head. “Wow” would be one word to describe it. And once the cross-dressing ‘bug’ has bitten him, there’s rarely thought of going back to wearing all drab again.

#4 - Something sexual may have happened the first time a man wore women’s clothing. Slipping on a pair of nylon stockings or pantyhose may have been sexually arousing - and he may have pleasured himself to the point of climax. That’s a positive “reward” for cross-dressing, and often the beginning of a lifelong habit.

#5 - Wearing women’s clothing can be very relaxing for a man. A lot of men release the day’s stress while they’re dressed in women’s garments.

Female Masking

If you want to look like a woman from head to toe and to keep your beard, there is something you should consider. Female masking.

Female masking A subculture is thriving online. The men wear latex or silicone masks and torsos to make themselves look like women. The result is a mostly immobile face, giving the impression of a doll or mannequin. Unlike transgenders, ‘rubber dollars, or maskers’ don't feel born in the wrong body. Dressing up as a member of the opposite sex is the way to have fun or explore sexuality. Many who practice female masking are married, heterosexual men.

Male enthusiasts don elaborate latex or silicone masks and bodysuits complete with breasts to become glamorous female alter-egos. One man stated, “I get enjoyment out of it, I get a sense of escapism out of it,’ he reveals. ‘I'm just out to have fun. It's like the extension of another persona within me that wants to go out and have fun”. Another masker boasted, “It's about fun. A lot of men have fun by pretending to be women. Not all of them even want to be hot.” Reasons why some men have done a female anatomically correct rubber body suit due to a men’s low self-esteem or for others it is a form of self-expression. Other rubber dollars comments are, “It is a form of escapism and enjoyment. It is kind of like an extension of another persona within them that wants to go out and have fun.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uObi_lSMaFA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rP6t9hK5FPU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_iEZLrs428 how to ware and do your makeup when using a face mask

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XClnPuWfCik video is in Chinese with English subtitles

Female masking can be very expensive, with a mask costing $300, mask and breasts $600 and an entirely female body suit costing $1000. Female masking will allow you to keep your beard and still dress. You can be young or old, and you will appear the same.

Men that dress in woman underwear

There are many reasons why a man might choose to cross-dress.

• Mild personality disorder slightly deprived sensual and tactile relationship with the mother especially.
• Psychological reason as simply dress for the pure sensual pleasure of it.
• For a bisexual male, crossdressing may be an aspect of the man wishing to literally adopt the feminine role in a bisexual relationship.
• Others cross-dress as a form of play, and often do so with the encouragement and consent of their wives/partners.
• A great majority of crossdressers practice in what is called 'the closet' which is often a reflection of the refusal of a female partner to accept what she might perceive as non-masculine behavior.

One of the gender behaviors that children may do is Cross-dressing. Playing dress up is a healthy way for young children to learn about gender roles of for men and woman. Sometime a child will want to dress in the clothes of the other sex because the child believe that their parents prefer children of the other sex. Some studies reports another reason why a child might cross-dress they do not have people of the same sex as role models.

A review of many cross-dresser stories they got started by an older sister playing dress up with them being dressed in girly things. Sometimes a boy does something naughty relating to the girls, and his punishment is to be dress as a girl. Maybe a child starts cross-dressing about their curiosity about being around girls and woman that he tries to associate in clothing like them. For whatever the reason the pre-teen will continue into puberty with has cross-dressing, good or bad experience. Some boys will grow out of cross-dressing, usually when they discover real girls.

Frottage

For the teenage boy, he experiences nocturnal dreams and the feeling of his first climax. It does not take long for him to learn how to masturbate. For some boys, masturbation becomes a fixation, something they do three, four or more times a day. Some boys will discover that if they use something soft, silky or satin will make the sensation of masturbation for pleasurable. This finds this material in the laundry or hanging on a close line or tucked away in woman’s drawers where they should not be looking. At this point, the panties become frottage and the boy the frotteur.

The frotteur, a figure that populates serological literature about sexual deviance, initially was characterized as a usually male paraphiliac (a person that exclusively relies on one atypical or extreme activity for sexual arousal and gratification) who enjoys rubbing covered or bared genitals against strangers in public places. Much of the literature, including the first appearance of the term frotteurism in the German sexologist Richard von Krafft-Ebing's Psychopathic Sexualis (1886), places the frotteur in crowded public places where he furtively attempts to rub himself against unknowing females. In using of panties as frottage, the young masturbator substitutes female panties for the unknowing women.

You are reading this article because you have dressed before and you are interested in continuing, or you have never cross-dressed before but some reason you have a desire to try something new. At this point, there are several directions you can take. What path you choose will depend on your body hair, yes, your body hair.

Everyone knows that men that cross-dress must be smooth all over but what happens if you have a beard and do not want to shave.

Gender Bending

Some men are gender bender. A gender bender (LGBT slang: one who genderfucks) is a person who disrupts, or "bends," expected gender roles. Gender-bending is sometimes a form of social activism undertaken to destroy rigid gender roles and defy sex-role stereotypes, notably in cases where the gender-nonconforming person finds these roles oppressive. It can be a reaction to, and protest of, homophobia, transphobia, misogyny or misandry. Some gender benders identify with the sex assigned them at birth but challenge the societal norms that assign expectations of, gendered behavior to that sex. This rebellion can involve androgynous dress, adornment, behavior, and atypical gender roles. Gender benders may self-identify as trans or genderqueer. However, many trans people do not consider themselves "gender benders."

Cross-dressing would be a form of gender-bending because the purpose is to "fuck with gender" roles and presentation. If you have a full beard or like to stay unshaven, you can still cross-dress.

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Panties for Men, why not?

Where to begin?

Society has prescribed what clothing a man should wear and what a woman should ware. A man dresses in cotton tidy whites, boxers or brief then covered by drab pants, and drab shirts. A woman dresses in silk, satin, nylon, lycra in colors that can brighten your day, style from G-string to full panty, bra of so many shape and colors. Her body is covered in so many types of skirts, blouses and dresses that allow a woman to fully express her feminism and sexuality.

Woman as a group dress sexy to show fecundity, or basically her overall fertility. Colors and patterns can draw attention to a woman’s body and to compete with other woman for the attention of others. Woman dress sometimes to show of their cleavage or a short skirt to show off their hips and make their legs look longer. The color of woman’s clothing may have a lot to do with fashion trends but color allow a woman to stand out in a room of other woman, saying to the males present, hear I am. Woman wear soft, touchable fabrics could be their way of advertising they feel soft, gentle, very feminine and submissive, seeking an aggressor.

So why should men not wear what woman wear? Society says for a man to dress as a woman is a sin (Deuteronomy 22.5) or it is a disorder (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, DSM-5 Transvestic Disorder 302.3) or wives of cross-dressers have commented, as disgusting, frightening, or ridiculous. There are enough reasons why most men never steps into woman’s panties but a few men who dare has describe the experience and pleasure as:

• I am putting on panties, and no one will know

• The feeling of the material rubs me exciting me all day

• I have so many panties to choose from, color, material style

• It felt heavenly. The sense of nylon against my legs was a feeling unlike any other I’ve experienced either before or since.

• The fact that a woman put those nylon stockings on me made the experience not only sensual but also life-changing in that it made me realize that the first time I wore lingerie would not be the last time.

• My first-time wearing lingerie was so nerve-wracking and exhilarating.

• I didn’t want to go through life without having at least tried it. Well, I did, and I was hooked for life! Lingerie feels so soft, silky, and smooth, and it looks good on me too (I am a crossdresser).

• Slipping into panties, then pulling the pantyhose up my legs for the first time was an indescribable feeling. To this day I feel the same feeling every time I put them on.

Many men who ware woman’s panties report that it is sexually stimulating. Men will get off on putting on: clean panties, used panties, stolen panties, purchased panties, different styles, different color, different materials, vintage panties, panties with lace or ruffles, children panties, or grandma panties just to name a few.

Most of the men that wear panties are heterosexual men with no desire of meeting other woman or men. Men that ware woman’s undergarments are not homosexual. Most homosexuals want to look like men not woman and do not cross-dress (maybe 5% and 10% of all cross-dresser might be called homosexuals, which is the same percentage for normal men.) https://www.crossdreamers.com/2010/11/vernon-coleman-study-of-crossdressers.html .

Men wear woman panties because they are cross-dressers, they derive sexual pleasure by the dressing activity or the desire to look like a woman. Other reasons why men wear woman panties they have a fetish or because they are a woman trapped in a man’s body. There are hundreds of reasons why men cross-dress but it is possible that some men just like the feeling of the material in a non-sexual way. Maybe some men likes they way they look in panties to draw attend of others (male or female). Maybe some men likes the different styles of panties because it gives them the ability to choose something different or they like panties because of the comfort. Yes, it is possible that some men will ware woman panties and are not categized as cross-dressers.

Marketing studies has reported an increasing number of men discover the joys, pleasure, comfort and practicality of slipping on woman panties.

For men, they have two choices; to buy panties that have been designed for woman or to buy panties designed for men. Yes, if you are a man looking for a change: change in style, texture, color, or comfort in the selection of underwear, you now have panties and bras designed to fit men.

Men, why not enjoy the feeling of lycra, silk, satin, nylon or other material that has been in the past reserved for the female underwear? Why not enjoy how you look in a jock strap, G-string, boxers, bikinis, Moonshines, thongs or harness made of soft and colorful material? Do you love lace or leave it?

Major clothing manufactures had discovered there is a market for men’s who might prefer something different than tidy white boxer or brief. Some men want the feel of woman undergarments but ones that are made for men. They want something to ware that has color, patterns and textures as possibilities. This made for men panties or manpanties have a full cut in the gusset for his manhood allowing a better fit then woman’s panties. Manpanties are the way to go because a man wearing something made for a man and no one can call him a cross-dresser or a Transvestite.

https://www.erogenos.com/mens-underwear this link has a complete line of men’s underwear, this site uses men to model their products.

How to select the right size woman panties for a man or manpanties for a man?

https://oureverydaylife.com/how-to-convert-mens-clothing-sizes-to-womens-12195623.html this site used the rule of 21 to determine a man’s dress size.

https://www.crossdresserheaven.com/cross-dresser-sizes-what-dress-size-are-you-really/ another good reference

A man can wear pantyhose to keep his legs warm on a cold night and can be called normal but he should not be sexually aroused or he might be consider a cross-dresser or Transvestite.

https://www.pantyhose-stockings-hosiery.com/pantyhose-for-men/

https://www.glieberman.com/bodystockings-for-men/ some of the manantyhose at this sight have fly for easy relief.. Also this site uses male models to display their products. Do not shop at a website that shows you woman wearing products design for men, just do not trust them.

There are a group of men that has to wear a bra because of a medical condition called gynecomastia https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gynecomastia. Gynecomastia are enlarged breasts on a man, mantites or manboobs as some would reference there condition. This condition can develop in 15% of all men. It can be quite embarrassing for a man and depending on his condition he will bind them just as a female cross-dresser might do or he can wear a bar for the same reason woman do, not to be sexually but for comfort. If you have mantities do not feel you are the only man with breasts https://www.gynecomastia.org/ is a link for you.

How to measure a man for a bra https://feminizationsecrets.com/transgender-crossdressing-bra-size/ and http://www.femulate.org/2013/11/nine-out-of-ten-men-wear-wrong-size-bras.html

Living in Sri Lanka now

I am not living and working in Sri Lanka.  My new location is is better than my last in Saudi Arabia.
At least I can go out dressed and have some fun.

Cross-dressing is a secret

Cross-dressing is a secret man must keep from all others, everyone. Never trues anyone with your secret. While you can find some stories on the net about how a man got caught by their wife and she was understanding and let him continue dressing, this is out of being the typical reaction of the wife or girlfriend, and most likely it will be kicked out of the house and divorce at least in the US. The people in the UK are more tolerant of cross-dressing husbands.

Guideline not to get caught.  Do not take other people clothing for your playful jacking sessions.  If you take panties or a bra or stockings from your wife’s, girlfriend, a female neighbor, mother, sister, sweet or other relations, sure enough, they will notice.  They will notice it missing and if you are a fool and leave signs of your mischief, it will sooner than you are discovered.  Be a man and buy your female clothing.

Buying your panties if that is what you are using to get your rocks off is not that difficult.  Yes, if you are twelve, it might be hard to walk into a department store and browse the woman’s underwear section to find the right size, color, and type that suits you.  However, if you are under eighteen and do not have a credit card and an excellent excuse to be rummaging the woman’s undies department, there is one way you might be able to buy what you need.  Most large department stores have self-checkout registers.  If you can walk quickly to the racks of woman undies as in Walmart and grab one or two items that you think will fit and is the right material, then you can pay cash at the self-checkout count. Go when it is not busy, and others will not be behind you, and the salesclerk is busy elsewhere, scan your items, drop them in the bag and then pay.

The salesclerk should never question any adult male buying panties or other woman clothing as for whom you are buying the things.  If you are asked to smile and do not reply or if you can, say your wife’s birthday or your girlfriend one-week anniversary. 

Once you are old enough to get a credit card in your name, then you can order online.  Remember the credit card must be yours and not shared with a spouse or girlfriend, and your mailbox delivery must be as private as your cross-dressing.

If you do not have the time, do not do the crime of cross-dressing.  Most often men get caught because they expect to be alone when doing their thing.  It is one thing to slip on panties and jack off while the wife is out shopping, and you are done in five or ten minutes. However, if your desire to wear panties is more involved, you will need the time to dress, do your makeup, your nails and then time to enjoy yourself.  When you are married, your wife will want to know where you are every minute of the day. If you are a teenage behind the locked door of your bedroom, it will never prevent a brother or sister or parent from knocking on the door asking what you are doing in there.  The bathroom can only be used for quick satisfaction. 

If you are lucky to have one or two items, you use to dress then you need a place to hide them.  However, no matter how good of a place you have found you run the risk of being discovered.  Some of the usual places to hide your things are:

•    Under your bed or your mattress

•    In a box in your closet

•    In your car

•    In the garage in a box of used clothes or a suitcase not used

•    In your golf bag or bowling bag or fishing tackle box (oh the smell)

•    A little harder to find is to remove the bottom drawer of your dresser and there is a space between the floor and the bottom of the drawer where you can hide a few things.  If discovered claim you do not know where they came from and suggested it was the last tenant of the rental flat.

Life as a teenage crossdresser is difficult with a different set of problems.  As a teenager, you have more time to yourself and if you are in the house by the time set you do not get a question about where you have been and what you have been doing.  If you do, you can respond by hanging out with friends.  Life as a single man has more freedom and opportunity, but your freedom will vanish as soon as the girlfriend moves in or you are married.  Most men when they find a girlfriend or is married will put away their girly things.  All is fine until the wife or girlfriend stops having sex and the man must resort to taking things into his hands.  Most cross-dressers start off as a heterosexual male using cross-dressing as a form of masturbation.

It is not uncommon for a man in his forties to revert to cross-dressing or discover cross-dressing for his enjoyment.  At this time in his life, he may have more time to spend cross-dressing and more resources to cover his tracks. However, remember if you are married or have a girlfriend there is a risk of being caught.  The result will be the same, you married will be over and your girlfriend will leave.  If you are not willing to give up your relationship, then do not cross-dress.

When you are married and cross-dress, the following are the possibilities if your fetish is discovered:

1)    The worst will happen, you family with think you are a pervert, you neighbors will quit speaking to you, your co-workers will laugh behind your back. You will be divorce and not have custody of the children.

2)    Your wife or girlfriend will think it is disgusting but for the sake of the children you will be allowed to continue to pay the bills, but you will not have sex with her again, and you will not be allowed to dress again.

3)    You will understand that you have an illness, and she will work with you to go straight but sooner or later will revert to 2 or 1 above.

4)    You spouse will understand, will allow you to dress but will not help or support you.  Sooner later she will take the position of 3 then 2 then 1 above.

5)    You will understand and support you.  She will help you buy clothes, will play dress-up with you in bed; will even allow you to date men.  This action is the rarity and never expect that your wife is such a woman in her individual. Remember most women is willing to share another bed.

As a cross-dresser, you can either do your thing in the closet or the open.  The attitude of the public is changing, and it is possible that you can advance from a closeted CD to a full-time transvestite. Until you can go public, you will be sneaking around to find some time to dress and do your makeup.  The following rules are intended for those CD that dares in the closet and wishes to stay that way but feel the need to meet someone for some bedroom fun.

The following are some rules to help you not get caught.  The same rules apply for not getting caught as if you are an affair as does for not getting caught cross-dress but with a minor twist.

Rule #1 Never, Never, ever tell your Sufficient Other (SO) or family that you are a cross-dresser. If you admit that you are a cross-dresser, you run the risk of losing everything you have.  SO really do not want another woman in their bed. If you do decide to tell, refer to rule #5

Rule #2 Plan, plan, pl

Plan everything. Don't leave anything to chance. It does not matter if you are dressing in private and spending a couple of hours dressed or if you have decided to meet someone, keep your plan clean and straightforward.  Never write you plan on paper or keep on the computer, you must keep you plan in your head. Plan on how you will meet someone that you can trust, but remember not to give them your real name, location, where you work or any information that could be traced to you.  Create a new identity.  Go out and find several business cards of others, a realtor, a banker or used car salesman.  When you meet someone to show them the business card, do not give. Your fake ID can use one of these names from the business cards.

If you are to meet at a hotel and you have agreed to rent the room, then pay cash, use your fake ID to register. Tell the desk clerk that you only need the room for a business meeting or that you are traveling and must catch a plan.  At check-in, you will be asked for your car license plate number, give it but transpose the numbers.  Hotel seldom checks what cars are parked. If you have a concern, park you’re in a shopping center and take a taxi to the hotel.

See the rules below and plan, plan, and plan.

Rule #3 Do not leave a paper trail, always pay cash, never use your shared credit card. If you are going to spend money on your cross-dressing, make sure not to use your joint credit card. Open an account at a different bank but remember it will show up on your credit report and if the SO has access to your credit history she will ask about the unknown card.  Tell her your company required you to have one for emergencies.

Rule #4 Have a backup plan

If you get caught, try to minimize the damage. This means you need to have an emergency plan and an exit strategy. Don't be an idiot and not plan for a disaster.  If your dressing is discovered, when asked, never admit everything.  Keep the SO in the dark as much as possible; they won't be able to piece everything together, and if you are busted, they won't be able to provide a complete picture leading to your downfall. If caught be prepared to try and get your SO to accept your fetish. Do a Google Search for, “Tell your wife you’re are a cross-dresser,” and you will find over 30 hits that will give you advice on telling your SO.  Have one or two of these websites handy to give to your SO should you have to admit you enjoy woman clothing.  Try this site http://www.tau-chi.org/.

Go to consoling now, so if busted you can honestly say you have been trying to manage the urge.  Pick a consular that support CD otherwise if she picks a marriage consular she will pick one that does not support CD.

Rule #6 Go no go. Be on the alert that you might be being watched or that there is suspicion with your excuse to be away for a few hours. You will need to be ready to abandon your date should you feel something is not right with your plan. Set a go no go check and trust your instants as to going forward or not.

Rule #7 Set up habits and do not change them

As part of your plan, set up a routine that will provide you with an excuse to be gone for a few hours or a day.  Do not expect to go golfing or fishing with the guys to be an excuse to be out of the house.  Your alibi will fail by a simple phone call.  Once you set an alibi, do a test run several times to see if there are any questions asked by your SO.  If there are suspicions, you can honestly respond that nothing is going one. Don't suddenly change behaviors or habits. The best way for you to not raise suspicion is by maintaining your same habits. If you know there will be a change, then plan slowly for that change.

Rule #8 Remember the little things, cover your tracks.

Do not use your credit card, or the office or home computer to set your time and location of your date. Do not use your phone to store any information. Delete, Delete, Delete daily all trace of your activity.  If you think your car will be spotted and betray your location, then use the local bus or taxi. Have an alibi or two. Time your indiscretions to have minimal gaps in your timeline as possible.

Rule #11 Use a fake name

Make your fake ID.  Templates can be downloaded from the internet.  This link will help you make your fake ID.

https://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Fake-ID
Collect a few business cards of a realtor, banker or use car salesman and use one for your fake ID cards in a city when you plan to play, so you look like a local guy, not business cards from you live.

Start a profile with TVChix www.tvchix.com.  It is a free website for cross-dressers that has features for a profile, email, posting messages, chat is and posting photos.  It is possible to use this site to meet someone like a fellow CD or an admirer.  The site is based in the UK, but there are plenty of members in the US.  If you want a US website, try https://www.clubcrossdressing.com/ or visit this site for a list of ten possible dating website. https://www.datingadvice.com/online-dating/crossdresser-dating-sites

Rule #9 Computer security.

Do not share a computer for any of your activities.  Some keyloggers will record every keystroke.  Your SO will learn your private email account, PW, conservations.

On your laptop delete your history, web Brower and email sent and received.  Go to this website and follow their directions to stay as private as possible online. https://www.tripwire.com/state-of-security/security-awareness/hide-browsing-history-complete-guide/

Do not use the office computer.  IT departments for the company have nothing better to do than observe online employee activities.

Rule #10. Never play in your backyard.  Never meet anyone that knows you or your family.  Meet people at least 60-mile distance so there is no chance of being observed by someone that knows you and might report your activities to your SO.

Rule #11 Secure your conservation. Password lock your current phone to prevent the curious from seeing incoming messages.  But you might be asked to see your text messages.  Best to get a second phone and keep it hidden.  If asked about the second phone say it belongs to the company or a friend that you are returning. 

Use the Blackbook app Best App for Hidden Secret Contacts on Your Phone with a password.

Never use Facebook, Instagram, or Twitter account communicate with someone you will meet.  If you must communicate with someone, use WhatsApp app https://www.whatsapp.com/download/

Abandon Google browser. Consider the search engine DuckDuckGo, which has an official "no tracking" policy.

•    Use a VPN. A VPN Iteral Private Network on your smartphone and laptop. A VPN provides a private tunnel to your internet allowing you to access restricted adult websites when logged on someone’s Wi-Fi that restricts adult porn sites.  It also helps prevents someone from snooping your network activities.

•    Go dark with TOR. For the ultimate in online protection, consider TOR, a free app designed to shield you from online surveillance.

•    Turn off your webcam. Malicious users and malware can take control of your webcam and monitor you or record your every move. Disable it, disconnect it or cover it with tape.

Rule #12 Use a condom. Using protection away from home will avoid bringing home an STD or getting someone pregnant (if you are bi you may find yourself with a woman) was key to keeping their affairs on the down-low. If at home. You use a condom for birth control then never use your home supply for your meeting.  Buy three at a time and toss any unused condom.

Rule #13 Hide the evidence, never bring a strange smell home. Makeup or lipstick on your clothing would immediately raise suspension. Before returning home make sure you wash any smell off your body and do not replace with your own that will be stronger than what would be expected after hours of use. Take a shower before you get home, not right after. Make sure to wash off any signs of what you have been up to. Your SO will have no problem picking up the scent of another on you,

If you meet at a hotel, make a motel where you park in front of your room, and the guest does not have to walk through the lobby. 

Remember cross-dressing is your hobby, it is your fetish; it is your second personality.  Cross-dressing will cost you money, a lot of money.  Shoes (heels, or boots or sneakers) are $24-40 at Payless Stores (up to size 14). Dresses at Goodwill will cost $5 or skirts and blouses $5-8.  A good wig will cost $25-75.  You could go cheap and by one at a costume store for $10 but looks terrible after a couple of time used.

Jewelry will cost $25-50. Panties and a bra will cost $25-50.  Makeup will run $100-200 unless your face is so fem that you can get by with just lipstick. 

The hotel room will cost $75 to 125.  Using a taxi will cost another $10-20. 

You will buy software to make you're surfing the net safely and to hide anything on your hard drive.  You may buy photo editing software to make your portraits lovelier.  Cost for software $100-200.

Cross-dressing is an expensive hobby but that costly as golf, scuba diving or fishing.

If you cannot afford the above, then do not try to meet someone for a date. It cost money to dress; it cost money to cover your tracks, it cost money to be a cross-dresser.

Oh God, why am I the way I am?

Many cross-dressers, transvestite or transgendered (CD/TV/TG) might have said these words.

I am sure if a (CD/TV/TG) have gone to your church and discussed the topic with your priest, pastor, minister, or layperson, you will have received the same answer, Deuteronomy 22:5. The universal response of bigoted, narrowminded, bible thumping, born again, self-rightist, a homophobic man of God, is that dressing as a woman, for any reason is an abomination. Such unforgiving words from men who are said to speak for our loving God. Many (CD/TV/TG) have left the church with no hope of redeeming their soul from hell.  Is it true, can our loving God sentence men to hell for any act of cross-dressing? Please do not give up hope; this article may change your life and put you in the grace of God. 

https://www.gaychristian101.com/transgender.html

If you search the web, you will find the first 25 to 30 hits to be from religious websites or religious blogs from people whose views on the subject are narrowminded, bigoted, improper, misguided, mean-spirited, without grace, and not in keeping with the teaching of Jesus.  I am the last person to lecture the bible thumper conservative right and the born-again Christians what is the correct interpretation of the bible.  I am sure I will be villainized, berated, condemned as a heathen, for what I am about to say.  I am a cross-dresser, and it is hard to surf the net on the subject and not read what the religious right has posted about cross-dressing. Finally, I found some sanity in the insane world of those that think they speak the word of God.

https://www.gaychristian101.com/transgender.html

The above website makes more sense in ten pages than a hundred pages provided by those who are said to speak for out God. These ten pages can restore your faith. 

When reading the scriptures to derive at an understanding as to the meaning, one needs to follow these two axioms,  "Scripture only settles matters about which it speaks plainly." - Richard Hooker, 1554-1600, Anglican theologian  and  "Scripture cannot mean NOW What it did not mean THEN." - Rick Brentlinger, 1950- Independent Baptist preacher

The website very clearly spells out the issue of what is written in the bible and its interpretation and meaning.  The logic of the article is like plane geometry which teaches one to use a set of definitions, postulates, and axioms to solve mathematical problems. Plane geometry, math at the purest form using man’s mind to reason, with this article providing the same clarity of logic in its conclusion.

The article states that Christians do not have to follow the Law of Moses since the resurrection of Christ. The article also explains Deuteronomy 22.5 is not about transvestites or transgender but having to do with the worship of false Gods. The article concludes that differences of opinion on non- essentials like clothing are not good reasons to break fellowship with our brothers and sisters in Christ.

As Christians, we can analyze the Laws of Moses as it pertains to our lives in our current time and place. There are six-hundred thirteen Law of Moses that Jesus has summed up to mean love thy neighbor.  If the choice is between taking Deuteronomy 22:5 literally and harming transgender people, or allowing grace and compassion to take over, which option leads to life and health for our neighbors?

As Christians, we are not required to follow to the Laws of Moses

Another good article about a woman dressing as men and men dressing as a woman, is it sinful can be found here:

http://queergrace.com/clothing/

This article provides a clear review of the subject, and clear conclusion based on historical context, based on "Scripture only settles matters about which it speaks plainly." - Richard Hooker, 1554-1600, Anglican theologian and "Scripture cannot mean NOW What it did not mean THEN." - Rick Brentlinger, 1950- Independent Baptist preacher

This article will provide enlightenment on the following questions, please go to the website and read.

What does Deuteronomy 22:5 say?

Why do some Christians use Deuteronomy 22:5 against transgender people?

Are there characters in the Bible who don’t follow the Deuteronomy 22:5 rule?

How can we understand Deuteronomy 22:5 in the context of the rest of scripture?

These two websites provide hope for the CD/TV/TG who happens to put on a dress for whatever reason is not sinning on the eyes of the Lord, that dressing is not an abomination, and that Christ died and had come again updating the Law of Moses to

With the coming of Christ, God has established a new covenant with mankind. Jesus and His apostles gave us a radically new understanding of the real intent of the Old Testament Law; they brought a new era of the rule of love for all people and spiritual truth instead of rule by law.

I have a new web site

I started a new web site to post my cindy's photos.
https://cindyusa584.wixsite.com/website
Please try the site and then at the bottom of the page is a contact form, please fill it out and send to me so I know someone has found this web site.
Cindy

Nothing New

Nothing new to me, I am still in Bahrain and working in Saudi Arabia. I have been dressing up and taking photos, then posting them to Flickr.com.
Here are a few of the photos.

I have a new blog site.

https://cindyusa584.wixsite.com/website


This site was easy to create with Wix.com. They provide many good templates for different types of web pages. I chose one that was more for photographs and models. Visit the site and if you like it send me an email at cindyusa58@yahoo.com


Cindy

Meeting a stranger in a hotel room

Meeting a Stranger in a Hotel Room


A few weeks after my confrontation with Ron, my friends Bob, and Rich debating cross-dressing, I was depressed. I was depressed and knew that I would have to be Cindy soon to feel normal again. Dressing and doing my makeup always made me feel better and made me horny. I posted a request to meet a dominant man on a cross-dressing website where admirers were known to cruise. Within in a few days, I received several replies to my posting.


One reply was interesting because of his strange request. He wanted to meet cross-dresser in a dark room. He did not want to see the cross-dresser’s face or to be seen by the cross-dresser. He e-mails expressed his desire for the lights to be out and the door unlocked. He told me to dress only in my stocking, suspenders, and bra.


What he proposed was truly anonymous sex, which was something I enjoyed. I replied to him I would rent a hotel room and dress, as he asked. I agreed to be lying on the bed, pretending to be sleeping. He liked the arrangements and set the day to meet. I arrived early, dressed, and did my makeup. A few minutes before the stranger would arrive I placed the do not disturb sign in the doorjamb next to the lock allowing the door to be shut but not locked. Anyone could have pushed the door open to enter.


At seven PM, I was lying on the bed in the appointed position, the lights were off, and the room was dark. A few minutes later, the door opened flooding the room with light from the hall. The door closed making the room dark again. The stranger did not tell me much about himself, just he had never met a CD before, and wanted his first experience to be as anonymous as possible. I did not know whether he was black or white, young, or old. After the door closed the strange make no sound or could I hear any movement. I guess his eyes were getting used to the dark. After a minute or so, his hands touched my back then moved to my ass. In the dark room, he felt my body confirming I was naked except a bra, suspender, and stockings. Everything seemed to be as we agreed.


It happened so fast! His weight was on top of me, holding me down. I could not move anymore. With one swift motion, he had my hands by my side pinned by his knees. Positioned on the bed face down, helpless; I could not offer any resistance. I tried to yell. The stranger said, "Shut up bitch!" as he cups his hand over my mouth. His hand muffled all the sounds I could make. He removed his hand from my mouth, I tried to yell again but he stuffed something in my opened mouth. I heard duct tape being ripped from a roll. Quickly the tape was used to secure my mouth shut.


He grabbed my arms by the wrist, tying them with something silky like stockings or pantyhose. My hands were bound fast restricting my arms. The stranger slipped some material over my eyes and fastened it tightly around my head. Gagged, blindfolded and bound, I was a half-naked cross-dresser lying face down on a bed.


I heard the rustling of clothes, the unzipping of pants. He sat on the bed next to me. He touched me, starting with my shoulders, then the touch of his hand moved down my back. I tried to move away from his touch. His hand moved all over my back then moved to my behind. He felt the suspender, stockings, and the rest of my naked body. His hands moved to my waist then grabbed each cheek firmly.


Then whack, whack, I felt the pain of two slaps on my ass cheek. I assumed it was his hand. He said with a sound of power over me, "Cindy is a bad girl letting a stranger come into her room.” Whack, whack was the sound I heard, I felt the stinging on my backside. "That is why I am here, to punish naughty Cindy.” Whack, whack, each spank was getting stronger.
He began, "Fucking American Cunt, fucking every man who wants your sorry ass.” Whack, whack, "You like being a bad girl don't you, slut Cindy?" My backside was getting sore with each slap. My cheeks were bright red and warm to the touch. Whack, Whack!


I wondered whether anyone in the hall or other rooms could hear the misuse I was receiving. His hand slapped my cheek and pausing while his finger would explore my crack. His finger massaged around my hole. After the tenth slap, his finger violated my anus. He exclaimed, "Your cunt is taut your filthy bitch. I am going to give you something to think about the next time you post a personal advertisement on a Yahoo!” He stood and dragged me to the edge of the bed positioning the upper half of my body on the bed’s edge. He stood between my legs, spreading them farther apart. I felt him place one hand on my ass as he pulled my cheeks apart. He rubbed his cock down my crack seeking my hole. He found my man pussy and pushed his cock head past the first set of sphincter's muscles, causing some pain.


I thought, ‘ouch that hurts’. ‘He must be thick, relax, and accept his dick’ I told myself. I was glad I had put some lube up me arose before he arrived, or it would have hurt more. I squirmed pretending to move away from his dick but trying to get the lube to work. He laughed, "Oh Cindy you cannot escape from me. I am going to enjoy your sweet cunt.” He pulled on my hips, thrusting deeper.


The lube was working as his cock worked deeper into my cunt. I moaned into the gag as if I were in pain, I was not but it made the man think he was hurting me. Some men get off thinking they were hurting someone by forcing their cock into an ass. I know that a man's rectum is longer than a woman's pussy and men with large dicks like ass fucking better than pussy fucking. This stranger’s cock felt larger than a typical man. I am skilled at anal sex, but I have my limits of eight inches long and four inches around. This stranger’s cock felt longer than eight inches. His cock caused me pain when he pushed in deep. Then I felt pleasure when his cock would rub against the prostate. Large dicks are a pain but pleasurable. This stranger was becoming a pain in the ass. I sensed he enjoyed inflicted pain when he ass fucked a guy. He claimed with self-satisfaction his voice, "Oh Cindy you are such a whore. I love forcing you to take my cock into your fucking cunt.” My eyes were covered, I could not see him, but I pictured him watching his cock go deep into my body.


I tried to relax, allowing his cock to go deep inside me reducing the pain. Just when was used to this position, he stopped, rolled me over on my back and dragged me to the center of the bed. I was lying on my arms. He grabbed my ankles, raised my legs, pushed his cock deep into me, and fucked me in this position. Talking to me as if I am something to be used, he stated, "I am going to teach you to enjoy my dick. Do you like my cock fucking your sissy cunt?” I do not think he expected a reply with the gag in my mouth.


All I could answer was, "Ah, ha,” I tighten my anus muscle causing more friction giving him more pleasure in each thrust.


His fucking speed increased, as he announced, "Oh you are a fucking cunt, I am going to cum. I am going to pump you up full of my seed.” With one thrust forward, he impaled me as far in as he could. I felt a warmness squirt far inside me. I loved counting the number of squirts each man would deposit in me. With each squirt, I contract my anus muscle responding to the deposit. He tossed my legs aside, making me feel like a piece of meat. He left me on the bed, tied, gagged, blindfolded, used and dripping his seed dripping from my misused manpussy.


At this point, I expected him to untie me and leave. Instead, I heard a phone dial tone and the dialing of numbers, and he said, “Two-One-Seven.” Slowly saying my room number.


A few minutes later I heard the door opening, then the sound of footsteps entering the room. I felt the presence of several men in the room, maybe three or four. I thought this could not be good. A new voice asked, “What a fucking bitch, what is her name?”


The stranger said, “Cindy the slut.”


Another voice said, “I want a piece of that ass.”


A voice deeper than the others announced, “I need that fucking hot mouth on my cock.” I realized that I was going to be raped.


My mother uses to say, “When you are going to be raped, you might relax and enjoy it.”


The tape over my mouth was removed and the material in my mouth was removed. Someone whispered into my ear, “Cindy, now you’ll be a good girl and you will not be hurt. Otherwise, you will get punished. You will not enjoy the punishment, you’d better be a good girl, and do you understand?”


All I could answer was “Ah-Uah .” I had bondage fantasies about gangbang fantasies. Then I was not sure whether I was ready for what was about to happen.


I felt my body being moved and positioned on the bed. Pillows were placed under my chest allowing me to be kneeling on the bed; my face was on longer on the bed. The pillows allowed my face to be at an elevation that made allowed someone to stand and fuck my mouth and someone else to screw me. I steadied myself knowing my warm body would be used for the pleasure of horny men.


As my eyes got adjusted to the light, I got a look at the men in the room. One man was leaning on the dresser, a cigarette in his mouth and a bean? in his hand. Oh, shit, I recognized him. I knew him. Ron, a friend. Just a few nights ago, I met him in a bar and we had a long conversation about cross-dressing. I looked at the other two men, I recognize one was Bob and the other was Rich, two more of my friends were in the bar. Oh, shit, oh shit, so far, they have not recognized me as Matt, only Rich knew my identity.


I was tied up with duct tape and could not move. My body was positioned for a double assault. One man fucking my ass and another fucking my mouth, split roasted as my English friends would say and there was nothing I could do against it. Rich knelt on the bed, bent over, and whispered into my ear.


“Hey Matt, you look so sexy. After our conversation the other night, I wanted to know what it felt like to get oral from a cock sucking queer. Then Ron told me about an ad he saw on yahoo and I suspected it was you when the ad was signed Cindy.” Do not worry, I will not tell Ron that Cindy is Matt if you give me your best blowjob. Bob is going to fuck you know and does not know that you are Matt, so it will be our secret, right?”


I shook my head yes and whispered, “Yes”, Rich knelt next to my face.


Rich said in a loud voice, “Open your mouth bitch and suck my cock.” I did as he ordered.


I heard Bob’s voice saying, “What a fucking queer bastard, dressing up as a woman and letting me fuck him. I am going to enjoy breeding this cunt.” I felt the warmth of a cock between my cheeks where Ron had fucked me hard a few minutes earlier. I had lubed my ass but now I had Ron’s seed in me and dripping out running down my leg. Bob’s cock penetrated my ass with no pain. I could feel I had a cock in my ass, but it did not feel long or fat around. Bob was bouncing his body off my ars, slapping my ars as if he were riding a bull and yelling, “Yippee!”


Rich held my head guiding his cock into my mouth. I gagged when he forced his cock into my mouth. I guessed he had seven inches and was lucky his cock was not fat. Rich continued to fuck my face telling me, “You have a hot mouth bitch. Keep sucking you fucking queer.” I was not able to say no. This was one of my fantasies so far none of my friends to realize I was Matt.


Bob continued to pound away at my ass and Rich fucked my faced. After five minutes of this fucking, Rich said, “Oh yes slut, I am coming, I am going cum down your throat and you will swallow every drop.”


The Bob chimed in, “Oh yes, I cummings too. I will breed your ass you are a fucking queer cunt. I could feel the warm flush down my throat of Rich’s cum and felt Bob warm cum filling my ass. As both men pulled out of my body I looked at Ron, still standing naked leaning against the dresser and filming the split roasting of Cindy.


“Oh shit,” I said to myself. Now they might recognize me, and I will never live this down. I turned my head away. The duct tape was removed from my hands. I was pushed over on the bed, too tired and used to move. The three men dressed calling me names, like cunt, whore, queer, cocksucker, laughing about what they have done, raping a helpless CD. Only Rich knew I was Matt so far, he had kept the secret. As the men left the room, Rich leaned down and whispered into my ear. Ron has a video of you dressed and getting fucked while giving oral. By the way, great head you gave me. I will be seeing you again but for now, do not tell anyone what happens here tonight, or the video will be posted to the net wi0th your real name and home address. You will have horny men knocking on your door wanting to fuck a sweet cut and fucking your mouth.


With that, the three men left the room leaving me with the taste of cum in my mouth and cum dripping out of my ass, used and abused. I knew that in the days to come I was going to be used again but already thought how I can reverse my situation.