Living in Sri Lanka now

I am not living and working in Sri Lanka.  My new location is is better than my last in Saudi Arabia.
At least I can go out dressed and have some fun.

Cross-dressing is a secret

Cross-dressing is a secret man must keep from all others, everyone. Never trues anyone with your secret. While you can find some stories on the net about how a man got caught by their wife and she was understanding and let him continue dressing, this is out of being the typical reaction of the wife or girlfriend, and most likely it will be kicked out of the house and divorce at least in the US. The people in the UK are more tolerant of cross-dressing husbands.

Guideline not to get caught.  Do not take other people clothing for your playful jacking sessions.  If you take panties or a bra or stockings from your wife’s, girlfriend, a female neighbor, mother, sister, sweet or other relations, sure enough, they will notice.  They will notice it missing and if you are a fool and leave signs of your mischief, it will sooner than you are discovered.  Be a man and buy your female clothing.

Buying your panties if that is what you are using to get your rocks off is not that difficult.  Yes, if you are twelve, it might be hard to walk into a department store and browse the woman’s underwear section to find the right size, color, and type that suits you.  However, if you are under eighteen and do not have a credit card and an excellent excuse to be rummaging the woman’s undies department, there is one way you might be able to buy what you need.  Most large department stores have self-checkout registers.  If you can walk quickly to the racks of woman undies as in Walmart and grab one or two items that you think will fit and is the right material, then you can pay cash at the self-checkout count. Go when it is not busy, and others will not be behind you, and the salesclerk is busy elsewhere, scan your items, drop them in the bag and then pay.

The salesclerk should never question any adult male buying panties or other woman clothing as for whom you are buying the things.  If you are asked to smile and do not reply or if you can, say your wife’s birthday or your girlfriend one-week anniversary. 

Once you are old enough to get a credit card in your name, then you can order online.  Remember the credit card must be yours and not shared with a spouse or girlfriend, and your mailbox delivery must be as private as your cross-dressing.

If you do not have the time, do not do the crime of cross-dressing.  Most often men get caught because they expect to be alone when doing their thing.  It is one thing to slip on panties and jack off while the wife is out shopping, and you are done in five or ten minutes. However, if your desire to wear panties is more involved, you will need the time to dress, do your makeup, your nails and then time to enjoy yourself.  When you are married, your wife will want to know where you are every minute of the day. If you are a teenage behind the locked door of your bedroom, it will never prevent a brother or sister or parent from knocking on the door asking what you are doing in there.  The bathroom can only be used for quick satisfaction. 

If you are lucky to have one or two items, you use to dress then you need a place to hide them.  However, no matter how good of a place you have found you run the risk of being discovered.  Some of the usual places to hide your things are:

•    Under your bed or your mattress

•    In a box in your closet

•    In your car

•    In the garage in a box of used clothes or a suitcase not used

•    In your golf bag or bowling bag or fishing tackle box (oh the smell)

•    A little harder to find is to remove the bottom drawer of your dresser and there is a space between the floor and the bottom of the drawer where you can hide a few things.  If discovered claim you do not know where they came from and suggested it was the last tenant of the rental flat.

Life as a teenage crossdresser is difficult with a different set of problems.  As a teenager, you have more time to yourself and if you are in the house by the time set you do not get a question about where you have been and what you have been doing.  If you do, you can respond by hanging out with friends.  Life as a single man has more freedom and opportunity, but your freedom will vanish as soon as the girlfriend moves in or you are married.  Most men when they find a girlfriend or is married will put away their girly things.  All is fine until the wife or girlfriend stops having sex and the man must resort to taking things into his hands.  Most cross-dressers start off as a heterosexual male using cross-dressing as a form of masturbation.

It is not uncommon for a man in his forties to revert to cross-dressing or discover cross-dressing for his enjoyment.  At this time in his life, he may have more time to spend cross-dressing and more resources to cover his tracks. However, remember if you are married or have a girlfriend there is a risk of being caught.  The result will be the same, you married will be over and your girlfriend will leave.  If you are not willing to give up your relationship, then do not cross-dress.

When you are married and cross-dress, the following are the possibilities if your fetish is discovered:

1)    The worst will happen, you family with think you are a pervert, you neighbors will quit speaking to you, your co-workers will laugh behind your back. You will be divorce and not have custody of the children.

2)    Your wife or girlfriend will think it is disgusting but for the sake of the children you will be allowed to continue to pay the bills, but you will not have sex with her again, and you will not be allowed to dress again.

3)    You will understand that you have an illness, and she will work with you to go straight but sooner or later will revert to 2 or 1 above.

4)    You spouse will understand, will allow you to dress but will not help or support you.  Sooner later she will take the position of 3 then 2 then 1 above.

5)    You will understand and support you.  She will help you buy clothes, will play dress-up with you in bed; will even allow you to date men.  This action is the rarity and never expect that your wife is such a woman in her individual. Remember most women is willing to share another bed.

As a cross-dresser, you can either do your thing in the closet or the open.  The attitude of the public is changing, and it is possible that you can advance from a closeted CD to a full-time transvestite. Until you can go public, you will be sneaking around to find some time to dress and do your makeup.  The following rules are intended for those CD that dares in the closet and wishes to stay that way but feel the need to meet someone for some bedroom fun.

The following are some rules to help you not get caught.  The same rules apply for not getting caught as if you are an affair as does for not getting caught cross-dress but with a minor twist.

Rule #1 Never, Never, ever tell your Sufficient Other (SO) or family that you are a cross-dresser. If you admit that you are a cross-dresser, you run the risk of losing everything you have.  SO really do not want another woman in their bed. If you do decide to tell, refer to rule #5

Rule #2 Plan, plan, pl

Plan everything. Don't leave anything to chance. It does not matter if you are dressing in private and spending a couple of hours dressed or if you have decided to meet someone, keep your plan clean and straightforward.  Never write you plan on paper or keep on the computer, you must keep you plan in your head. Plan on how you will meet someone that you can trust, but remember not to give them your real name, location, where you work or any information that could be traced to you.  Create a new identity.  Go out and find several business cards of others, a realtor, a banker or used car salesman.  When you meet someone to show them the business card, do not give. Your fake ID can use one of these names from the business cards.

If you are to meet at a hotel and you have agreed to rent the room, then pay cash, use your fake ID to register. Tell the desk clerk that you only need the room for a business meeting or that you are traveling and must catch a plan.  At check-in, you will be asked for your car license plate number, give it but transpose the numbers.  Hotel seldom checks what cars are parked. If you have a concern, park you’re in a shopping center and take a taxi to the hotel.

See the rules below and plan, plan, and plan.

Rule #3 Do not leave a paper trail, always pay cash, never use your shared credit card. If you are going to spend money on your cross-dressing, make sure not to use your joint credit card. Open an account at a different bank but remember it will show up on your credit report and if the SO has access to your credit history she will ask about the unknown card.  Tell her your company required you to have one for emergencies.

Rule #4 Have a backup plan

If you get caught, try to minimize the damage. This means you need to have an emergency plan and an exit strategy. Don't be an idiot and not plan for a disaster.  If your dressing is discovered, when asked, never admit everything.  Keep the SO in the dark as much as possible; they won't be able to piece everything together, and if you are busted, they won't be able to provide a complete picture leading to your downfall. If caught be prepared to try and get your SO to accept your fetish. Do a Google Search for, “Tell your wife you’re are a cross-dresser,” and you will find over 30 hits that will give you advice on telling your SO.  Have one or two of these websites handy to give to your SO should you have to admit you enjoy woman clothing.  Try this site http://www.tau-chi.org/.

Go to consoling now, so if busted you can honestly say you have been trying to manage the urge.  Pick a consular that support CD otherwise if she picks a marriage consular she will pick one that does not support CD.

Rule #6 Go no go. Be on the alert that you might be being watched or that there is suspicion with your excuse to be away for a few hours. You will need to be ready to abandon your date should you feel something is not right with your plan. Set a go no go check and trust your instants as to going forward or not.

Rule #7 Set up habits and do not change them

As part of your plan, set up a routine that will provide you with an excuse to be gone for a few hours or a day.  Do not expect to go golfing or fishing with the guys to be an excuse to be out of the house.  Your alibi will fail by a simple phone call.  Once you set an alibi, do a test run several times to see if there are any questions asked by your SO.  If there are suspicions, you can honestly respond that nothing is going one. Don't suddenly change behaviors or habits. The best way for you to not raise suspicion is by maintaining your same habits. If you know there will be a change, then plan slowly for that change.

Rule #8 Remember the little things, cover your tracks.

Do not use your credit card, or the office or home computer to set your time and location of your date. Do not use your phone to store any information. Delete, Delete, Delete daily all trace of your activity.  If you think your car will be spotted and betray your location, then use the local bus or taxi. Have an alibi or two. Time your indiscretions to have minimal gaps in your timeline as possible.

Rule #11 Use a fake name

Make your fake ID.  Templates can be downloaded from the internet.  This link will help you make your fake ID.

https://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Fake-ID
Collect a few business cards of a realtor, banker or use car salesman and use one for your fake ID cards in a city when you plan to play, so you look like a local guy, not business cards from you live.

Start a profile with TVChix www.tvchix.com.  It is a free website for cross-dressers that has features for a profile, email, posting messages, chat is and posting photos.  It is possible to use this site to meet someone like a fellow CD or an admirer.  The site is based in the UK, but there are plenty of members in the US.  If you want a US website, try https://www.clubcrossdressing.com/ or visit this site for a list of ten possible dating website. https://www.datingadvice.com/online-dating/crossdresser-dating-sites

Rule #9 Computer security.

Do not share a computer for any of your activities.  Some keyloggers will record every keystroke.  Your SO will learn your private email account, PW, conservations.

On your laptop delete your history, web Brower and email sent and received.  Go to this website and follow their directions to stay as private as possible online. https://www.tripwire.com/state-of-security/security-awareness/hide-browsing-history-complete-guide/

Do not use the office computer.  IT departments for the company have nothing better to do than observe online employee activities.

Rule #10. Never play in your backyard.  Never meet anyone that knows you or your family.  Meet people at least 60-mile distance so there is no chance of being observed by someone that knows you and might report your activities to your SO.

Rule #11 Secure your conservation. Password lock your current phone to prevent the curious from seeing incoming messages.  But you might be asked to see your text messages.  Best to get a second phone and keep it hidden.  If asked about the second phone say it belongs to the company or a friend that you are returning. 

Use the Blackbook app Best App for Hidden Secret Contacts on Your Phone with a password.

Never use Facebook, Instagram, or Twitter account communicate with someone you will meet.  If you must communicate with someone, use WhatsApp app https://www.whatsapp.com/download/

Abandon Google browser. Consider the search engine DuckDuckGo, which has an official "no tracking" policy.

•    Use a VPN. A VPN Iteral Private Network on your smartphone and laptop. A VPN provides a private tunnel to your internet allowing you to access restricted adult websites when logged on someone’s Wi-Fi that restricts adult porn sites.  It also helps prevents someone from snooping your network activities.

•    Go dark with TOR. For the ultimate in online protection, consider TOR, a free app designed to shield you from online surveillance.

•    Turn off your webcam. Malicious users and malware can take control of your webcam and monitor you or record your every move. Disable it, disconnect it or cover it with tape.

Rule #12 Use a condom. Using protection away from home will avoid bringing home an STD or getting someone pregnant (if you are bi you may find yourself with a woman) was key to keeping their affairs on the down-low. If at home. You use a condom for birth control then never use your home supply for your meeting.  Buy three at a time and toss any unused condom.

Rule #13 Hide the evidence, never bring a strange smell home. Makeup or lipstick on your clothing would immediately raise suspension. Before returning home make sure you wash any smell off your body and do not replace with your own that will be stronger than what would be expected after hours of use. Take a shower before you get home, not right after. Make sure to wash off any signs of what you have been up to. Your SO will have no problem picking up the scent of another on you,

If you meet at a hotel, make a motel where you park in front of your room, and the guest does not have to walk through the lobby. 

Remember cross-dressing is your hobby, it is your fetish; it is your second personality.  Cross-dressing will cost you money, a lot of money.  Shoes (heels, or boots or sneakers) are $24-40 at Payless Stores (up to size 14). Dresses at Goodwill will cost $5 or skirts and blouses $5-8.  A good wig will cost $25-75.  You could go cheap and by one at a costume store for $10 but looks terrible after a couple of time used.

Jewelry will cost $25-50. Panties and a bra will cost $25-50.  Makeup will run $100-200 unless your face is so fem that you can get by with just lipstick. 

The hotel room will cost $75 to 125.  Using a taxi will cost another $10-20. 

You will buy software to make you're surfing the net safely and to hide anything on your hard drive.  You may buy photo editing software to make your portraits lovelier.  Cost for software $100-200.

Cross-dressing is an expensive hobby but that costly as golf, scuba diving or fishing.

If you cannot afford the above, then do not try to meet someone for a date. It cost money to dress; it cost money to cover your tracks, it cost money to be a cross-dresser.

Oh God, why am I the way I am?

Many cross-dressers, transvestite or transgendered (CD/TV/TG) might have said these words.

I am sure if a (CD/TV/TG) have gone to your church and discussed the topic with your priest, pastor, minister, or layperson, you will have received the same answer, Deuteronomy 22:5. The universal response of bigoted, narrowminded, bible thumping, born again, self-rightist, a homophobic man of God, is that dressing as a woman, for any reason is an abomination. Such unforgiving words from men who are said to speak for our loving God. Many (CD/TV/TG) have left the church with no hope of redeeming their soul from hell.  Is it true, can our loving God sentence men to hell for any act of cross-dressing? Please do not give up hope; this article may change your life and put you in the grace of God. 

https://www.gaychristian101.com/transgender.html

If you search the web, you will find the first 25 to 30 hits to be from religious websites or religious blogs from people whose views on the subject are narrowminded, bigoted, improper, misguided, mean-spirited, without grace, and not in keeping with the teaching of Jesus.  I am the last person to lecture the bible thumper conservative right and the born-again Christians what is the correct interpretation of the bible.  I am sure I will be villainized, berated, condemned as a heathen, for what I am about to say.  I am a cross-dresser, and it is hard to surf the net on the subject and not read what the religious right has posted about cross-dressing. Finally, I found some sanity in the insane world of those that think they speak the word of God.

https://www.gaychristian101.com/transgender.html

The above website makes more sense in ten pages than a hundred pages provided by those who are said to speak for out God. These ten pages can restore your faith. 

When reading the scriptures to derive at an understanding as to the meaning, one needs to follow these two axioms,  "Scripture only settles matters about which it speaks plainly." - Richard Hooker, 1554-1600, Anglican theologian  and  "Scripture cannot mean NOW What it did not mean THEN." - Rick Brentlinger, 1950- Independent Baptist preacher

The website very clearly spells out the issue of what is written in the bible and its interpretation and meaning.  The logic of the article is like plane geometry which teaches one to use a set of definitions, postulates, and axioms to solve mathematical problems. Plane geometry, math at the purest form using man’s mind to reason, with this article providing the same clarity of logic in its conclusion.

The article states that Christians do not have to follow the Law of Moses since the resurrection of Christ. The article also explains Deuteronomy 22.5 is not about transvestites or transgender but having to do with the worship of false Gods. The article concludes that differences of opinion on non- essentials like clothing are not good reasons to break fellowship with our brothers and sisters in Christ.

As Christians, we can analyze the Laws of Moses as it pertains to our lives in our current time and place. There are six-hundred thirteen Law of Moses that Jesus has summed up to mean love thy neighbor.  If the choice is between taking Deuteronomy 22:5 literally and harming transgender people, or allowing grace and compassion to take over, which option leads to life and health for our neighbors?

As Christians, we are not required to follow to the Laws of Moses

Another good article about a woman dressing as men and men dressing as a woman, is it sinful can be found here:

http://queergrace.com/clothing/

This article provides a clear review of the subject, and clear conclusion based on historical context, based on "Scripture only settles matters about which it speaks plainly." - Richard Hooker, 1554-1600, Anglican theologian and "Scripture cannot mean NOW What it did not mean THEN." - Rick Brentlinger, 1950- Independent Baptist preacher

This article will provide enlightenment on the following questions, please go to the website and read.

What does Deuteronomy 22:5 say?

Why do some Christians use Deuteronomy 22:5 against transgender people?

Are there characters in the Bible who don’t follow the Deuteronomy 22:5 rule?

How can we understand Deuteronomy 22:5 in the context of the rest of scripture?

These two websites provide hope for the CD/TV/TG who happens to put on a dress for whatever reason is not sinning on the eyes of the Lord, that dressing is not an abomination, and that Christ died and had come again updating the Law of Moses to

With the coming of Christ, God has established a new covenant with mankind. Jesus and His apostles gave us a radically new understanding of the real intent of the Old Testament Law; they brought a new era of the rule of love for all people and spiritual truth instead of rule by law.

I have a new web site

I started a new web site to post my cindy's photos.
https://cindyusa584.wixsite.com/website
Please try the site and then at the bottom of the page is a contact form, please fill it out and send to me so I know someone has found this web site.
Cindy

Nothing New

Nothing new to me, I am still in Bahrain and working in Saudi Arabia. I have been dressing up and taking photos, then posting them to Flickr.com.
Here are a few of the photos.

I have a new blog site.

https://cindyusa584.wixsite.com/website


This site was easy to create with Wix.com. They provide many good templates for different types of web pages. I chose one that was more for photographs and models. Visit the site and if you like it send me an email at cindyusa58@yahoo.com


Cindy

Meeting a stranger in a hotel room

Meeting a Stranger in a Hotel Room


A few weeks after my confrontation with Ron, my friends Bob, and Rich debating cross-dressing, I was depressed. I was depressed and knew that I would have to be Cindy soon to feel normal again. Dressing and doing my makeup always made me feel better and made me horny. I posted a request to meet a dominant man on a cross-dressing website where admirers were known to cruise. Within in a few days, I received several replies to my posting.


One reply was interesting because of his strange request. He wanted to meet cross-dresser in a dark room. He did not want to see the cross-dresser’s face or to be seen by the cross-dresser. He e-mails expressed his desire for the lights to be out and the door unlocked. He told me to dress only in my stocking, suspenders, and bra.


What he proposed was truly anonymous sex, which was something I enjoyed. I replied to him I would rent a hotel room and dress, as he asked. I agreed to be lying on the bed, pretending to be sleeping. He liked the arrangements and set the day to meet. I arrived early, dressed, and did my makeup. A few minutes before the stranger would arrive I placed the do not disturb sign in the doorjamb next to the lock allowing the door to be shut but not locked. Anyone could have pushed the door open to enter.


At seven PM, I was lying on the bed in the appointed position, the lights were off, and the room was dark. A few minutes later, the door opened flooding the room with light from the hall. The door closed making the room dark again. The stranger did not tell me much about himself, just he had never met a CD before, and wanted his first experience to be as anonymous as possible. I did not know whether he was black or white, young, or old. After the door closed the strange make no sound or could I hear any movement. I guess his eyes were getting used to the dark. After a minute or so, his hands touched my back then moved to my ass. In the dark room, he felt my body confirming I was naked except a bra, suspender, and stockings. Everything seemed to be as we agreed.


It happened so fast! His weight was on top of me, holding me down. I could not move anymore. With one swift motion, he had my hands by my side pinned by his knees. Positioned on the bed face down, helpless; I could not offer any resistance. I tried to yell. The stranger said, "Shut up bitch!" as he cups his hand over my mouth. His hand muffled all the sounds I could make. He removed his hand from my mouth, I tried to yell again but he stuffed something in my opened mouth. I heard duct tape being ripped from a roll. Quickly the tape was used to secure my mouth shut.


He grabbed my arms by the wrist, tying them with something silky like stockings or pantyhose. My hands were bound fast restricting my arms. The stranger slipped some material over my eyes and fastened it tightly around my head. Gagged, blindfolded and bound, I was a half-naked cross-dresser lying face down on a bed.


I heard the rustling of clothes, the unzipping of pants. He sat on the bed next to me. He touched me, starting with my shoulders, then the touch of his hand moved down my back. I tried to move away from his touch. His hand moved all over my back then moved to my behind. He felt the suspender, stockings, and the rest of my naked body. His hands moved to my waist then grabbed each cheek firmly.


Then whack, whack, I felt the pain of two slaps on my ass cheek. I assumed it was his hand. He said with a sound of power over me, "Cindy is a bad girl letting a stranger come into her room.” Whack, whack was the sound I heard, I felt the stinging on my backside. "That is why I am here, to punish naughty Cindy.” Whack, whack, each spank was getting stronger.
He began, "Fucking American Cunt, fucking every man who wants your sorry ass.” Whack, whack, "You like being a bad girl don't you, slut Cindy?" My backside was getting sore with each slap. My cheeks were bright red and warm to the touch. Whack, Whack!


I wondered whether anyone in the hall or other rooms could hear the misuse I was receiving. His hand slapped my cheek and pausing while his finger would explore my crack. His finger massaged around my hole. After the tenth slap, his finger violated my anus. He exclaimed, "Your cunt is taut your filthy bitch. I am going to give you something to think about the next time you post a personal advertisement on a Yahoo!” He stood and dragged me to the edge of the bed positioning the upper half of my body on the bed’s edge. He stood between my legs, spreading them farther apart. I felt him place one hand on my ass as he pulled my cheeks apart. He rubbed his cock down my crack seeking my hole. He found my man pussy and pushed his cock head past the first set of sphincter's muscles, causing some pain.


I thought, ‘ouch that hurts’. ‘He must be thick, relax, and accept his dick’ I told myself. I was glad I had put some lube up me arose before he arrived, or it would have hurt more. I squirmed pretending to move away from his dick but trying to get the lube to work. He laughed, "Oh Cindy you cannot escape from me. I am going to enjoy your sweet cunt.” He pulled on my hips, thrusting deeper.


The lube was working as his cock worked deeper into my cunt. I moaned into the gag as if I were in pain, I was not but it made the man think he was hurting me. Some men get off thinking they were hurting someone by forcing their cock into an ass. I know that a man's rectum is longer than a woman's pussy and men with large dicks like ass fucking better than pussy fucking. This stranger’s cock felt larger than a typical man. I am skilled at anal sex, but I have my limits of eight inches long and four inches around. This stranger’s cock felt longer than eight inches. His cock caused me pain when he pushed in deep. Then I felt pleasure when his cock would rub against the prostate. Large dicks are a pain but pleasurable. This stranger was becoming a pain in the ass. I sensed he enjoyed inflicted pain when he ass fucked a guy. He claimed with self-satisfaction his voice, "Oh Cindy you are such a whore. I love forcing you to take my cock into your fucking cunt.” My eyes were covered, I could not see him, but I pictured him watching his cock go deep into my body.


I tried to relax, allowing his cock to go deep inside me reducing the pain. Just when was used to this position, he stopped, rolled me over on my back and dragged me to the center of the bed. I was lying on my arms. He grabbed my ankles, raised my legs, pushed his cock deep into me, and fucked me in this position. Talking to me as if I am something to be used, he stated, "I am going to teach you to enjoy my dick. Do you like my cock fucking your sissy cunt?” I do not think he expected a reply with the gag in my mouth.


All I could answer was, "Ah, ha,” I tighten my anus muscle causing more friction giving him more pleasure in each thrust.


His fucking speed increased, as he announced, "Oh you are a fucking cunt, I am going to cum. I am going to pump you up full of my seed.” With one thrust forward, he impaled me as far in as he could. I felt a warmness squirt far inside me. I loved counting the number of squirts each man would deposit in me. With each squirt, I contract my anus muscle responding to the deposit. He tossed my legs aside, making me feel like a piece of meat. He left me on the bed, tied, gagged, blindfolded, used and dripping his seed dripping from my misused manpussy.


At this point, I expected him to untie me and leave. Instead, I heard a phone dial tone and the dialing of numbers, and he said, “Two-One-Seven.” Slowly saying my room number.


A few minutes later I heard the door opening, then the sound of footsteps entering the room. I felt the presence of several men in the room, maybe three or four. I thought this could not be good. A new voice asked, “What a fucking bitch, what is her name?”


The stranger said, “Cindy the slut.”


Another voice said, “I want a piece of that ass.”


A voice deeper than the others announced, “I need that fucking hot mouth on my cock.” I realized that I was going to be raped.


My mother uses to say, “When you are going to be raped, you might relax and enjoy it.”


The tape over my mouth was removed and the material in my mouth was removed. Someone whispered into my ear, “Cindy, now you’ll be a good girl and you will not be hurt. Otherwise, you will get punished. You will not enjoy the punishment, you’d better be a good girl, and do you understand?”


All I could answer was “Ah-Uah .” I had bondage fantasies about gangbang fantasies. Then I was not sure whether I was ready for what was about to happen.


I felt my body being moved and positioned on the bed. Pillows were placed under my chest allowing me to be kneeling on the bed; my face was on longer on the bed. The pillows allowed my face to be at an elevation that made allowed someone to stand and fuck my mouth and someone else to screw me. I steadied myself knowing my warm body would be used for the pleasure of horny men.


As my eyes got adjusted to the light, I got a look at the men in the room. One man was leaning on the dresser, a cigarette in his mouth and a bean? in his hand. Oh, shit, I recognized him. I knew him. Ron, a friend. Just a few nights ago, I met him in a bar and we had a long conversation about cross-dressing. I looked at the other two men, I recognize one was Bob and the other was Rich, two more of my friends were in the bar. Oh, shit, oh shit, so far, they have not recognized me as Matt, only Rich knew my identity.


I was tied up with duct tape and could not move. My body was positioned for a double assault. One man fucking my ass and another fucking my mouth, split roasted as my English friends would say and there was nothing I could do against it. Rich knelt on the bed, bent over, and whispered into my ear.


“Hey Matt, you look so sexy. After our conversation the other night, I wanted to know what it felt like to get oral from a cock sucking queer. Then Ron told me about an ad he saw on yahoo and I suspected it was you when the ad was signed Cindy.” Do not worry, I will not tell Ron that Cindy is Matt if you give me your best blowjob. Bob is going to fuck you know and does not know that you are Matt, so it will be our secret, right?”


I shook my head yes and whispered, “Yes”, Rich knelt next to my face.


Rich said in a loud voice, “Open your mouth bitch and suck my cock.” I did as he ordered.


I heard Bob’s voice saying, “What a fucking queer bastard, dressing up as a woman and letting me fuck him. I am going to enjoy breeding this cunt.” I felt the warmth of a cock between my cheeks where Ron had fucked me hard a few minutes earlier. I had lubed my ass but now I had Ron’s seed in me and dripping out running down my leg. Bob’s cock penetrated my ass with no pain. I could feel I had a cock in my ass, but it did not feel long or fat around. Bob was bouncing his body off my ars, slapping my ars as if he were riding a bull and yelling, “Yippee!”


Rich held my head guiding his cock into my mouth. I gagged when he forced his cock into my mouth. I guessed he had seven inches and was lucky his cock was not fat. Rich continued to fuck my face telling me, “You have a hot mouth bitch. Keep sucking you fucking queer.” I was not able to say no. This was one of my fantasies so far none of my friends to realize I was Matt.


Bob continued to pound away at my ass and Rich fucked my faced. After five minutes of this fucking, Rich said, “Oh yes slut, I am coming, I am going cum down your throat and you will swallow every drop.”


The Bob chimed in, “Oh yes, I cummings too. I will breed your ass you are a fucking queer cunt. I could feel the warm flush down my throat of Rich’s cum and felt Bob warm cum filling my ass. As both men pulled out of my body I looked at Ron, still standing naked leaning against the dresser and filming the split roasting of Cindy.


“Oh shit,” I said to myself. Now they might recognize me, and I will never live this down. I turned my head away. The duct tape was removed from my hands. I was pushed over on the bed, too tired and used to move. The three men dressed calling me names, like cunt, whore, queer, cocksucker, laughing about what they have done, raping a helpless CD. Only Rich knew I was Matt so far, he had kept the secret. As the men left the room, Rich leaned down and whispered into my ear. Ron has a video of you dressed and getting fucked while giving oral. By the way, great head you gave me. I will be seeing you again but for now, do not tell anyone what happens here tonight, or the video will be posted to the net wi0th your real name and home address. You will have horny men knocking on your door wanting to fuck a sweet cut and fucking your mouth.


With that, the three men left the room leaving me with the taste of cum in my mouth and cum dripping out of my ass, used and abused. I knew that in the days to come I was going to be used again but already thought how I can reverse my situation.